Friday, January 18, 2013

It's all bout LOVE

Sometimes, love is just not enough. No matter how hard we've tried, our problems remain unsolved. We loved and got hurt along the way, thats enough, right? Despite our efforts, we've already reach our limits. I really don't want things to end between us, after all the things we've put up with each other, our fights and suffering, we still have those laughing moments and happy times, right? I love you, but it's a pity this feeling can't solve our problems. Have you ever cried so hard with someone you love over something both of you can't resolve? We hugged and cried together because we cared for each other, it proved that our love was true. Honestly, people do get tired after trying hard for some time and it only takes one of us in a relationship to end it once they feel tired and gives up. It's frustrating and unacceptable for the one who still wants to keep trying, it's just unfair, you know? But it takes two in a relationship to work, if there's only one of you trying and another giving up, do you still think you can go far although things don't end now? I really wish the problems don't exist or can we just overlook them and pretend everything is alright between us? Every relationship have to go through this phase one way or another before they actually find their true love, I believe I will too. Don't give up on love.

Tuesday, January 1, 2013


You ever feel like just running away?

For seldom times , I do .

Just leaving. Everyone, and everything sitting somewhere faraway form you, while you're on your own.

I don't know. I guess I'm just tired of everything. I'm overwhelmed. It may not be all the time, but when I am, it's always TOO MUCH. It isn't ever okay, it's always more than I can handle, and I always feel like I'm handling it, alone.

Just tired. Nothing else. Sometimes it's just being alone and starred in daze make me feel better inside, calm and peaceful .

Good Bye 2012

Dear 2012,

As you pack your bags and get ready to leave, and as you see people get pumped up with their firecrackers and all the noisemakers available, please bear in mind that you will never be forgotten. You may not have been that long a year, or time has just really be passing so quickly, but that does not make anything you leave with us any less memorable.

For all the new experiences, new feelings, new friends, new love and all things new, thank you. You might be well aware of the thrill of first times. May it be good or bad, happy or sad, it happened and I thank you for many reasons— for lessons, mostly.

For everything that stayed, I thank you just as well, maybe even more. Thank you for the people that did not leave, for the passion that continued on burning, for the boyfriend who understand, who listen, who taught me a lot of things, who make life a little bit more fun, a little bit more bearable, a little bit more crazy and a whole lot more worth living. Thank you for the friends who accept me, over and over again. Thank you for the family that never ever left, no matter how irrational you become, how much you demand and how much of a brat you are. No matter the mood swings, the tantrums, the silent treatment and all. Let them know that their existence is a gift I will never be tired of opening, looking at and treasuring as much as cherishing.

Thank you for the people I met and liked, and those I did not. More than anything, thank you for the new brand of patience I acquired. Thank you for new books and old books, and for the time to read. Thank you for fluctuating moods that let me think stuff over, for giving me the passion to write and letting it stay after all this time, for my supportive boyfriend and grandparents. Thank you for the adventure times I had with my friends, in places I have learned to navigate on, and places I have never been to. Thank you for the people that have been with me, in ups, in downs, and in both. Most especially my boyfriend. Thank you for the smiles and the tears, the raised eyebrows, the one-sided smile, the uncontrollable laughter, the sarcastic remarks, the snide comments, and everything else. And for not letting the world end last December 21.

Most of all, above everything said and done, thank you for the feelings you let me feel and the lessons you let me learn.

Thanks to God for granting all my wishes for the past year.
Thank you for these last hours with you.