Tuesday, November 13, 2012

LDR ?!

Distance is so hard, and I hate trying to explain that to people, because they just don’t get it. I  wonder what so hard for them to try understand the sweetness of being in LDR sometimes . They say that we will never work out because of the distance. They say that the person I’m with will get bored of me and move on and that long distance never works, it only works in movies. Well. I’m going to make my dream come true by making my boyfriend and I work. I will make sure that nothing breaks us up. Thats my goal and hope. They don’t get how you can love someone regardless on where they are and be willing to wait for them. Many of you think i’m crazy, and i guess i am. Love makes you do crazy things. At least I’ll be happy at the end.

I just want my friends to back me up on the things I believe in. I just wish people would stop getting my hopes down. :/ 

Only the LDR couples understand though . What a pity.
* fireworks* "boom baamm boom" "sparkles" WOW BEAUTIFULL !!!!

The late night skies are beautiful with those colourful fireworks and the atmosphere so nice. Watching the fireworks and listening to the popping sound , le me wondering how is it in Ipoh ?? Is it the same as here in Johor ,my place .
Kinda want to watch these firework with him now , Mr Jeff Jr . U know I missed you much ....huhu sobs sobs. Hoping one day ,we can watch the firework together at night under the beautiful night sky .
Anyway , Happy Diwali to our beloved Indians fellow friends on their enjoyable day !!!

Goodnyte ,peeps.Sweet Dreams

Monday, November 12, 2012


Just as wad people used to say " First love are easy to love ,but hard to forget ". This directly linked to my situation even it's already 1 year and half plus me and him seperated and I stepped into a new relationship with my current boyfriend. 1 year wasn't long and wasn't short . A lot of thing change and scars heal but memory just stubbornly won't fade. Each picture are still clear in mind and those are the "memory".
IT"S JUST HARD TO FORGET . For those time ,there are still chances I took a peek to check out his condition. A day before my 1 year and 5 month with my recent boyfriend ,I found those love letter that the "ex" wrote to me and re-read it . Amazing that the feeling of sweetness : GONE . Just the feeling of appreciation arrive into my heart. He did love me much but we both just not fated to be. Wad still make my heart gettign doubt was a sentence like this

"U know wad you're talking about ??? There's no one except you. No girl can replace you . "- he wrote.
"Whenever she was around even when we are seperated ,she will always be in my heart and my mind" -he said to one of my friend

I burnt all the letter just after I read it ...saying goodbye to this lovely man

Well , recently heard that he found a good girlfriend that who once was his god-sister.. I know maybe I din't get his blessing when I start with my recent boyfriend but I still hope the best for him ( the  "ex" ) . May God bless him and her. Amen . I saw your tweet , that right boy . "Past is past"  ^-^  Hope your future are brighter with the presence of her . Congratulation to the new husband and wife , MR.A and MS.E
Boy , remember to treat her well . Go on with your life .


Saturday, November 3, 2012

Relationship Chemical Reaction

Love is a threshold; It just keeps going up and up until it can't go any higher.
-John Mayer

I was once in love, but that's now just a faint memory.

I think I found out how relationships work. These thoughts are just compiled from experience and from wisdom from others.It may not apply to all or maybe just altered to other peoples situations but this how most people's relationships start and work out. :]

When you first meet sombody, you either like them straight away OR they like you OR you both secretly like each other right from the very start. You soon find out from a friend of a friend of a friend that he/she likes you too and it kills you, paralyzes you, floors you, sends you crashing down like an airplane. You fall so hard you gotta pick yourself off the ground when you find out. So you gather yourself and find a way to contact them by getting their number or asking for their email and call them, text them, email them or chat with them saying, "...yeah, that was a great conversation. Can I see you some time?" and they answer with, "I'd like that. :]"

"I'd like that." The feeling you get from hearing her/him say that is amazing it drops you back down to the ground like someone shot you. Your heart's about to stop out of joy because of "I'd like that." Nothing feels better than hearing them say "I'd like that." So now your blood pressures going up, you're six feet off the ground, you can't sleep because of "I'd like that."

So now you've hanging out for a while, and you call him/her again late at night like every other night and you feel like you've just droped the bomb and say "You know what, I've been thinking about you a lot..." and she gasps for air and you're like, "What's wrong?" and he/she replies with, "I'm sorry, it's just that I've been thinking about you a lot too."

The moment you hear him/her say, "...it's just that I've been thinking about you a lot too." BOOM! You fly higher into the sky. So high you feel like you've never felt this good before. So now "I'd like that."; done. You're now at "I've been thinking about you too.".

Now after a few weeks or months of being together, how ever long it takes for you to get comfortable with him/her, you gain the courage and sum it all up to tell them, "I gotta tell you something..." and they say "What?" and you say "I'm in love with you."

...and nothing in the world sounds better than "I'm in love with you." :]

From that, maybe she's crying out of joy or is supprised and you say in your head "I'm in. :))" It's rare that when you reach this point you still get friendzoned so it's not something to worry about. :D So now we just past "I'd like that." and "I've been thinking about you.". Now we're at "I'm in love with you." and there's no holding back anymore because you both have the same feeling and he/she fires back with "Well, I'm in love with you too :3".
Soon some day follows "I love you." answered back with "I love you too."

Fast forward, now you're like "I love you more than anything in life." cause "I love you." doesn't work anymore cause it's a threshold, it keeps moving up. Fast forward maybe six months, six weeks, whatever the case may be. Now you're like "I wanna marry you.", "I wanna impregnate you with my love.", "I just wanna F-...", "I wanna just send my love to you.", "I wanna make cute babies with you and be the father of your children.".

"Damn it, words don't work anymore."

...and at some point you reach this point and you know you've used this line in whatever language you use saying, "I just wish they'd put a new word in the dictionary bigger than love cause love just doesn't describe what I feel..."


...and so then now they come right back at you asking you, "Well do YOU love me?" and you'd answer straight away without a doubt "Of course I do!""Well say it."

Then it becomes...

"Say it twice."

"Say it three times."

...and then you cross a real interesting point over time where all of a sudden she starts to say "I hate you." and you think to yourself "Oh my God, she hates me. :\" which then evolves to...

"I hate you more than anything."

"We're over!"

"No, we're not!"

Then they go "Yes, we are. :("

Now all the words you've said and things have done mean nothing at all anymore. You're left with nothing. You're throwing punchs at water. You're wishing for things to work out out of all the efforts you make after everything has done and the fire has disappeared. You're done. It's over. That's the end.

You wanna know what the moral of the lesson is?

Never, ever, ever underestimate the power of "I'd like that."