Sunday, October 28, 2012

Hey, boy....♥

I honestly don’t know how you’ve put up with me for so long. You haven’t given up on me and my issues. 
You’re the only person who has stayed long enough to know that it’s impossible for me to be happy with myself and everything else that’s going on. I have no clue how you can cope with my constant mood swings, anxiety attacks, negative thoughts, cutting, refusing to eat, late night texts after a night terror… 
I really just don’t know how you do it.
But what makes me wonder the most is why.
Why do you stick with me through this hell?
Why did you choose me, over every other girl who is absolutely perfect?

I’m a mess, you know that. 
I have so many imperfections, and yet, you seem to look past them all and see a beautiful girl with lots on her mind and worries that need to be sorted out. You try so hard to make me feel better everyday… you try so hard. 
I feel bad when I just can’t seem to accept your compliments, or take your advice. I’m sorry.
You know I would never let you go for the world, right?
You know I want you to be happy too, right?

So, answer me this: How can you be happy with somebody as problematic and me? How?

I don’t know why you think I’m beautiful. Or sane. Or lovely. Or anything that you think I might be. Believe me, nothing about me is right.
So, why do you stay?
I don’t know.
I honestly do not know.

But thank you for sticking with me through all of my tears, blood, bruising, stubbornness, pain, worrying. 
You’re an amazing boy just for doing all of that 

Saturday, October 13, 2012

Relationship #1

Oh heyyyy everyone who takes their relationships with their bfs/gfs for granted...

You suck! You suck big time. I love a guy who lives 6515 miles away from me. When I get to finally be with him? I’m gonna make sure he knows how much I love him and want to be with him every freaking day.

You know what guise? People get tired of being taken for granted.

One day they are gonna have had it with your BS.

They’re gonna be fed up with you ignoring them, and treating them like they’re a second thought.

They’re gonna be sick with you never taking their feelings into consideration.

They’re gonna be sick of caring about you.

They’re gonna be sick of your insincerity.

They’re gonna be sick of waiting around for you.

And guess what?

One of these days they’re not going to be there.

They’re gonna walk out of your life because they know someone out there will treat them like they’re precious.

They’re gonna stop caring about you.

They’ll stop waiting on you.

And you’re gonna be left without them.

Without someone there waiting for you.

Without someone to love you.

Without someone to care about them like they did.

And it’s all cause you neglected them. And treated them like they’re a last minute idea.

And if this has happened to you, and you’ve done this to your bf/gf...

Than you deserved it.

Don’t get mad at them if they’re out with people who treat them and love them right.

It’s all because you didn’t see what you had before they left.

Treat the person you’re with like they’re something precious.

Treat the person you’re with like you’ll never see them again.

Love them right.

Because if you don’t, someone else will.

Tuesday, October 2, 2012

Happy Birthday To You

There’s this guy. He’s no ordinary guy, he’s something special. He’s really straight-forward and open. There’s this thing about him that I can’t describe, but it draws me in like nobody ever has. This guy is so handsome that when I look into his eyes the world freezes around me, and nothing exist but just the two of us. This guy can never make me angry for a long period of time. He’s just so cute and irresistible. I can’t ever stay mad at him for a long time. He’s just so hard to not talk to and ignore. I can’t stay away from his cute, adorable face for a long period of time. This guy didn’t care about my flaws. He looked at me as if I was the most beautiful girl in the world. He loved me for who I was. That’s one of the reasons why I fell in love with him. He makes me feel like I’m worth something. My heart sometimes hurts because I’m not by his side. But when he give me that beautiful smile the pain goes away and the world makes sense again. There is no guy in the world that could ever do what he do to me. He change me in so many ways, and I’m a better person with him. He is the most amazing guy to walk into my life, and I’m so happy to have him as mine. I love everything about him. From the way his face lights up when he smile, I love the way we stare into each other’s eyes and I know we’re both crazy with each other. When I stare into his eyes my lips draw to him like a magnet as though we’re meant to be together. I love the way we’re perfect for each other in every single way possible. I love everything about him. He is the best thing that’s ever happen to me.

I know we can’t get together right now; we are just too far apart and I perfectly understand that. But somehow, I still have BIG faith that in due time, this will all come to an end and we will be together (as what I’m always asking from God). Being far away from him is not that easy. It sometimes drives me crazy and makes me want to be with him at this very instant. Though we’re apart now, believe me, I can assure him that it doesn’t change the way I feel about him. He’s such a blessing for me. I really appreciate the love he’s giving me. Yes, he’s too smart to fall in love with me, but I guess I am much smarter than he is to make myself fall in love with him so deeply. I love him with all of my heart and soul. I believe that everything that I have been through in the past year has only prepared me for him. His love is true and not to be taken lightly. The love that we share is never-ending and very powerful. If I had met him earlier in my life I know I wouldn’t appreciate him as much. I thank God every day I wake up that someone loves me like he do, it is a once in a lifetime thing! I love him, and the way he make me feel, everyday. The great thing is I know he loves me just as much.

So, today is a very important day for me since it’s his birthday. I’m glad he was brought into this world so I could meet my Mr. Awesome. Haha. He deserves to have the best day ever on his special day.


So… Happy birthday to my hero, Melchiades Joeffrey Jr ! You really deserve the world today, bit I couldn’t fit it inside the box to sent to you. XD ~ I wish we could be together to celebrate your special day. Blah! Whatever! Just enjoy your day. Wait! I just want to thank your mom for giving birth to someone like you. :p I hope you get everything that you wish for, and that all your birthday dreams come true.